ok now im sad again. this isnt going anywhereee... comfortable - lil wayne.

MAN you suck.

DAY 1 - The Return of Cheryl

day 1 is definitely not how i thought it would be. i took a step back from the box* to analyze what i was doing, and what situation i was in.. and after thinking on it, i realized that i was brainwashed into following a pre-destined path my mother had set up for me. she advertised it well, weighing out the pro's and con's.. as well as throwing in a few promotions of her own, such as a free room and free food. but we ALL KNOW that nothing in life is free! so of course i had to read the fine print: "the promoted free room is next door to a 13 year old girl who is still not mature. across the hallway is a room with traditional-style grandparents who will scold you for anything that is seen non-traditional. across the other hallway is your mother who will always nag you no matter what until you get your shit together"

it's like i'm back at square one. but i refuse to consider this as "square one"

atleast this time around, i actually have something accomplished. so, technically, this would be square Two! haha

babysteps, i guess.

aha! that's exactly it - babysteps! i need to stop mentally punishing myself for not being where i wish i was.. and instead i should just appreciate where i AM, and what i've DONE to get myself in the place i'm currently in. maybe we should all take a

*moment of appreciation*

that is all for day 1. appreciate today, rest, go on with externships, and proceed to square three when ready. got it!

=)

*macbook reboot sound*

i guess i should update you guys with what's really going on right now, because the previous post is so last month!

ha!

after countless nights of contemplating til 2am, i've come to conclude that my personality has reached a pleateau. that would explain why i felt down-in-the-dumps at any given event, and why i honestly had nothing cool or important to talk about anymore. I was irritable.. bland... and lifeless, if you may.

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where has all of cheryl gone? what happened to those times where people would say, "cheryl would do that" or "that's so cheryl!" haha. i needed to put the cheryl back in cherylness.blogspot.com. and of course, i was/am destined to restore what was once mine!

so i'm coming back. with a new twist.. i'm 23 now, not 19, not 20, not 21, not 22.. but yes, 23. although i may not know what to do, i know now what NOT to do. (i'll let you re-read that)

ahh, the feeling of something fresh & new. i'm all for it! and i hope you'll stick around to continue reading my blogs.. cuz there will definitely be more updates in the (very) near future.

so far, here are my current updates:

-graduated from my pharmtech program

-starting pharmtech externships perhaps as soon as tomorrow

-moving back to moms

-not stopping there! continuing with school and aiming for that degree!

-VEGAS finally with all girls! (yes, i'm 2 years late. this is my first time going with friends and not family)

-SKYDIVING IS A MUST. since i couldn't do it last year

-ziplining next month. woot!

-no more Chase!

&more later..

;D

<3c.