thank you holidays!
and i'm done with finals yee =)
anyway,
don't get me wrong; i love my friends. we help sift through our differences and point them out to each other if they are visible and need attention. "hey, your ego is showing" or "hey, that annoying thing you do is annoying", etc.. etc. Of course, "thanks for letting me know". but what happens when it prolongs.. when it's almost like a bad habit..
or a personality trait? that you'll just have to accept?
or should you just stick with the saying [not fact] that simply people don't change?
or is it a medical problem that needs attention?
we can never really be too sure which fits the person.. but i guess if you're with them long enough you start to see which one of those the person fits closest to. for example...
"R_ _ _ _ l hey stop running around! you barely ate today where the heck did you get all that energy from?!"
fits in more closely with the last one; medical attention.
as for me, most commonly, (and i'm scared of this one everytime it comes up...)
"i forgot" (>_< sorrryyyy don't hurt me i honestly forgot!)
would fit in with... well... You be the judge.
"We know that you know what you're doing and what's going on at the moment, but once we ask you... iono? *shrug* it seems as if you're not listening. you're in the clouds." / "you have your blonde moments" / "someone once told me those are qualities of someone in love" -_-
i try to analyze this.. see what Could be the problem.. figure out what the Hell is the reason for that person to even SAY such a thing. okay; i've heard something similar before. hah.. wait. i've heard something similar before? *cough* habit? medical attention? "just me"?
grrr. =(
help get this shit Out of me. i'm tiiiired of it. so are you. if you can stand it, then i must like you.* haha
so i thought.. hmm. maybe some people care about certain things that i don't really pay much attention to. like girls who talk about where they got their clothes at.. seriously.. one ear out the other. or people who talk about things i frown on, ex. gambling, cheating, etc.. the most i'll say is an "oh. really? haha". or people who make a big deal out of nothing [or atleast, what i believe is "nothing" could be "something" to them... i guess...] i tend to roll my eyes. and i knoww, you hate it. but i simply do not care... ..
k that was a bit harsh. i Care, but about particular things. such as the IDEA of what you're saying, or what you Learned out of it, or if it's Beneficial to your life in any way, or if it's super Interesting to me. then yeah. i do care about those things. i care about your well being.
yeaaaaa...
anywho. because my habit/unwillingness to change/personality trait/medical condition, i started to think.. if it's a habit, how could i stop it if i just forgot my keys in the car? if i'm unwilling to change, have i not matured yet? why/how do i fix that? if it's a cheryl-thing, are people going to just be annoyed and accept it? if it's a medical thing, then i need some medical attention. =\
with that, that's only 1 sided. what happens when 2 "habits" clash? 2 people, talking normally, and then BAM. 2 habits clash. 2 personality traits that do not mix. a person who hates the disgustingness of people biting their nails and a person who habitually bites their nails. a person who pays attention to EVERYTHING vs a person who doesn't pay attention to anything. a person who is turned off by people who forget vs a person who constantly forgets. what the fuck now!?
so, i made this chart. i wrote down personality/habits/etc about each person that i had issues with, and i try to keep those "things" in mind. i even went so far as to making a schedule of that person's agenda throughout the week. i.e., "8 hr shifts on weekends (meaning that person will be tired)" or "class til 10 on tuesdays", etc etc.. it's a good thing to make. if you're forgetful as me, maybe even on your phone... hahaha..
AND NO I DID NOT FORGET MY NAME
one problematic issue i thought of in my head concerned "2 personality traits that do not mix". it worries me. worrying is bad. did you know it's a sin to always worry? iono that's what mom says. aghh sorry i went off on a tangent. anyways, a personality trait is what makes a person. that and, your past makes your present. truth. if you can't accept the person for who he/she IS... then... it's not gonna work? the whole point of a good relationship is when 2 people can be themselves and are perfectly fine with it. but if those "traits" or "habits" or "turn offs" don't mix with you.. then.. get out, i guess?* =\
i mean, *find someone who accepts you for who you are. heres a poem:
you be you.
i be me.
together,
happily. =)
you both gotta find common grounds tho. and be on the same page. or else miscommunication is at hand. be careful about that. and don't forget to apologize. [me n cassandra habitually say sorry a lot if you haven't noticed] [[we try to reduce it, coz what about the day we cry Wolf!]]
for those of you unfamiliar of the term, read this: the girl who cried wolf
just keep people's traits/habits in mind. a true friend accepts all for who you are. "cheryl cheryl cherylllll..."
and now, back to our daily lives. we continue on with what we learned.. a better person each day. you know how it goes.
speaking of a true friend, HAPPY 21ST KESSY!! (part 1)
we did some last minute card stuff. hella raining that day too. we were initially supposed to go to claim jumpers, but they were closed. so we drove to santana row to uh, blowfish. but i guess at that time, blowfish needed ID. -_-. we wanted to surprise her. then i ran to maggiano's, leftbank, pomodoro, chili's, cpk, sushiboat, even went to kaenyama, ALL FREAKIN CLOSED! me n cassandra were worried with headaches, hunger, kessy eyes-closed in the back, tired of all the turns i had to make.. and hella last minute epiphany.. OH YEAH. BJ's!
hope you liked your great white pizza and strawberry thingermajigg drink. part 2 is later. on our way home... presents!
got me thinkin, shit..... i'm next!gnite ;]
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