vday.

first & foremost, happy birthday grandma. i love you. =)

0214..
woke up to this
*am i in a movie?* lol. nobody's done that for me before. how cute. ^_^

readied myself... went to the sex-ed shoot.. drove an integ.. bought mickey d's.. went home. -_-

quickly read my history book.. went to class. mr. stephens got into the topic of blacks back in the days.. n how they used to be slaves n whatnot. she was like, "you know, earlier in the semester there were about 3 blacks in our class. then when mr. stephens brought up the topic of slavery, they didn't show up the next class day." HRMMM. we asked amongst ourselves.. why wouldnt you wanna learn about your past?

break comes along.. we step outside.. and i give cassandra a fatass hug. we missed each other so much that everything sorda just.. naturally.. came out in confession. bff<3.

i could hear a little "tehehe" in the background.
hahaha...

*blush*. my cheeks wouldn't stop hurting from smiling so much ^_^ thank youuu thank you thank you a bajillion times

[[after class.. me n cassandra headed to mi casa for my valentines day singles party. well.. some not-so-singles came, but thank you for coming!! thanks everybody.. i'm actually surprised that all the people i invited came + more. (with exception to 2). everything turned out great. i gotta work on the creme brulee though. maybe a less gruesome movie? heh?]]

7am though.. rachel had school. twas albert, ALLDAY. oh but i did have an interview though.. at some little yogurt shop in fremont. i'm not so serious about it, but i'm hired anyway. hasn't even finished being built yet. haha. i would prefer a highly traffic'd restaurant for the tips.. but.. havent found one yet. . . had some chipotle and a movie for freeeee <3.

saturday woke up and went straight to a dimsum restaurant with daddy&rachella. then off to the farmer's market for some shnacks. have you ever tried their grapes and compared it to safeway's grapes? farmer's market tops safeway fashooozy! all natural is the way to go! haha. i luh my daddy. check him out mid-laugh: LOL.

i was supposed to go to shelly's.. but.. if my bestfriends weren't going.. ehh.. then i wouldn't feel like going either. that's the reason i didnt go to prom. coz my bestfriends werent there. senior year too, wasn't exactly my best year.. coz my bestfriends weren't there. it's not exactly a comfort-bubble, it's kinda like.. if my bestfriends weren't going to be there.. what's the point?

i've tried to change my mindset about it. bestfriends aren't always going to be there at the places you want to go to. i guess what i'm saying is you gotta stay open-minded or else you'll miss out.

sunday was grandmother's birthday. he tried to cross-eye, but only one of them worked. haha.yeah my glasses tint in the sun. i dont like it much. so we came across this conversation about religion and i've concluded that it's not so much the value of religion, the real concentration is on the value of your morals. then i thought, religion must not be it -- religion is like, rituals, practices, habits, rules, almost like.. a law. believe it or not, there are bad religions out there. and bad religious people! so you dont really have to be religious or practice a religion (technically speaking), not if you want to. Have morals, and live up to them. religion was never a requirement..

what a mindconfusing subject.

i've come to the point where i feel as if nobody can completely understand me. i am me, you are you. yes, that's true. but could it also be my limited vocabulary? or maybe the people i talk to are not at my level? maybe my incapacity to be blunt? am i abstract or someshit? these questions continuously circle my head every time there seems to be a misunderstanding of intentions. i get pissed at people for not "getting it". there are select people, however, who act like they hear you and understand you, then when you least expect it, "i like you." 3 admitted words finally let out free into what was once known as Friendship has now blurred the boundaries and changed perspective. Think again, my dear friends. It was a pre-planned friendship which only objective was to reach above and perhaps beyond friendship. I'm sorry - anything more than friendship itself is not intended, however, if it happens.. then.. back to the famous quote: "Whatever happens, happens." Otherwise, don't count on me to feel the same way you feel about me. Different people on different levels could lead to big problems, in the long run. I'm just not stable right now. thanks for your understanding.

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