money honey

i know you're starting to feel it too.


summer, that is
after months of assiduous re-evaluation of finding the right environment,
i'm like a chameleon who hasn't quite perfected this shade of color. ? at this rate, i'm tweakin a rainbow

and lovin it. =) although i do have my homesick days, boredom is my motivation. [thnx manda]

i just dont fully understand how some people can sit in the same place for hours, days, years? union city is still my "hometown", but it's about time to disperse.

the temperature's rising, and so are emotions. [i've said that in a previous blog haha] it's time to get out and time to step out of my comfort zone and fuckn go for it.

"goooo forrrr itttt!!" - down for anything & everything =D. !

hahaha .. get ready for an epic summer!

all i am.

i'm scared .

sittin patient, steady waiting.
tired of frontin' like everything's okay.

who am i kidding."hahaha, don't worry. being indecisive isn't a bad thing, it just shows you're open-minded."

dear god,
show me what it is you want me to see.

this looks actually worth going to:

come with me.

btw, tomorrow's my first day at Chase. i'm nervous. i'm still in uc. i have a headache. I..... really don't care for companies that require a mask.

i miss these guys.
i wanna get turtles again. i just feel like im ready to take care of something..

i'm leaving soon. hope that'll relieve you. all of you.

this heat is pissin me off. woosah, beeitch. woosah.

AGHH you're pissin me off too

relief

show me what you got

bad things tend to happen when you're bored.

fyi guys, 

keep your girl entertained. ;P 

[now tell me yall can't give an amen to that]

anyway, they dont know you

like i do

theyll never know you

question. - response.

what's up? - "haha!" or "oh really?!"

oh, with who? - "her, she, and we"

look.

i really don't care what you did, or who you were with

tell me about YOU.

can you tell i'm bored? 

oh, sorry.. it must be hard to distinguish it, with sheer layers of a flirtatious assumptions, an open[late] flexible schedule, an ear to listen, scarce interference, and a smile like that, deeeeyum girl!

tell me something i don't know!

haven't i said that in a previous blog?!?!?!

i still need a hug?

from sam's.

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love"

beat that

you know,

it doesn't take much to make another person happy. or smile, at least. remember, it's the simple things that mean oh-so-much more. =)

like tapioca, for example.

going with amanda & roach. 

bye!

i'm so homesick!

staying local, with family and friends. oh how i miss home..

comfortable, convenient, and love - of course. *sigh*

picture overload this time!

if you notice you're going to the same restaurant, ordering the same thing every single time you go there.. might as well diy!
voila - mango shrimp! thanks to grandma's lovely cooking. she always makes improv taste good =).
so before, i honestly wasn't much into these.. then after going to annie's bday awhile back and tasting her homemade oyster dip; MAN that was good. =) now i don't pass these up!hah, grandma's like, "Cheryl's getting older.. she likes oysters now" hahaha.. i guess? does the consumption of oysters determine maturity? another hypothesis i must attempt to prove. hahaha.

rachel's "if i ruled the world" face"it's okay to dream"

herra random night. bf nia came by and we just drove like there was no tomorrow. surprised visited kessy at her work - which was closed when we got there -__-. hungry - jack's. dj calls - met up with The Guys at Dj's. simon remembers nia, hahaha. seriously tho, its been like 5 years wtf.

kessy calls - and we take the looooongest detour to her; getting lost on 92 and stopping by industrial off baumberg to chill by the sprinklers. ahhhhh i miss nia! ^_^. finally we get to kessy's thing in hayward. the people were gone, but the party wasn't over. lol. totally filipino-ing it, we karaoke'd and that's when i heard a rooster. yeah. a rooster.

"do you... have a loud alarm clock in the garage, or is that a rooster??"

"yeah, they have a rooster! wanna see?"

wtf..

pre-mother's day eating spree.

newark just opened a new buffet place with the most awesome food. chillin with OG

and of course, salmon sashimi. spoiled brat.

2pm

across the street @ newark park.

tony's birthday. =)

happy 21st tones =)

then, drove to gabe's kick-it(?) [sorry no pics.] that was definitely an interesting experience lol. but hey, theres a first for everything, right? never knew he could stay on a bacon joke thaaat long.. hahaha

and THEN, picked up nick, went to visit bf kessy. as usual, she's hungry. so we grab a bite at tgi's. then of course she wants dessert. .. free dessert.

let's just pretend it's nick's bday..FREE ICE CREAMhahahaha! =P

ATTEMPTED to create a mother's day picture in the fabric section of walmart. too bad their photo center is closed on weekends... -_-

mother's day 09.

mom likes thai.so does this onedaddy = star trek nerd. then he got me into it too, when i was younger. so me n daddy have been watching star trek for quite sometime and THIS is the GREATEST thing that has ever happened!

THE MOVIE!!! new characters, but exxxcellent acting! plus, chris pine is a hottie =) im at the edge of my seat throughout the movie and there are a few references to morality which we can relate. =) we tried.
"hey you should eat your pho""oh please"

oh yea. we're getting our carpet removed. downstairs only. turn it into tiles. you know what that means...... =) =) =)
the ladies:
gabe's bday.
studied. went with him to get his lobes. ate. [btw, i wanna get my cartilage done again!] went to visit sam at newpark. she's my secret lover. ;D. then BJ's! my camera was dying =T sorrryyy. see gabe's for pics. happy 21st =)

sam's bday.
after bio, [yes, cupertino] i went straight to newark sbux to meet up with the beautiful sam. all dressed up, SURPRISE leland and nick show up. off to tgi's...

[no pics yet sorray!]

hahaha sam had hella drinks but nevertheless happy 21st sammy! <3.>

i miss being home =(. roach in the passenger seat lip syncing to the radio and getting tap, seeing The Trio, The Guys... =( man. santa clara and cupertino dont have those things! buttttt i guess it's better this way. i need my fun.. in moderation. everyone's turning 21!!

oh but being 21 is only the start of it.. hahaha ;P

paranoid

kanye.

btw, happy birthday to my 'lesbo lover' Sam =)

WHO LOVES ORANGE SODA?
i love coca cola!

currently taking a break from reality to update my fellow blog readers about my whereabouts. do they care? [i will never know.]

alright. so here's the plan, mmkay?

1)cupertino [x]
2)uc [x]
3)sunnyvale []
4)cupertino []
5)uc []
6)santa clara []

how the heck. i drive like no other. gimme an ipod fm transmitter or eh i might as well buy myself a deck with the ipod outlet when i get my first paycheck.

i'm in that shopping-mood coz it's been awhile.

andddd i still need to update. lots of pics coming up.



let's ride =)

sometimes,

I just want a hug

faith roots run deep

question(s): What happens to offspring during a fight? How do you control it?

hypothesis: If there is a Pacquiao Fight, then babysitting + food is necessary.

materials: pacquiao fight, parentals that provide the kids, food, camera.

procedure: 1) turn on the tv to HBO, 2) have parentals sit & watch, 3) have kids roam around the house freely, 4) eat, 5) observe

observations:
initial boredom. (that's jamie; she has an eyepatch on. she needs it to fix her "ice")increased movement in musical environment.subjects were taught lessons, skills, and discipline. they were obedient to their scientist-teacher: Rachelcreme-brulee snacks were fed.regulation. (all the girls standing in the line for the..)one subject refused to participate.energy renewal.one subject preferred whipped cream on top of her smoothie.
conclusion: subjects required constant activity and sugar in order for regulation to occur. the fight had nothing to do with their activities, however, go manny for finishing in 2 rounds!


050409

i know i shouldn't be online right now, but Im feelin like releasing some thoughts. don't worry, releasing thoughts isn't necessarily "venting". usually "venting" is referred to as the steam that comes out when Angry. psh, i'd get a diary/xanga for that. this, is a blog. and this, has purpose.

hmmmm where should i start.

with 2 tests tomorrow and a due date for a urine/fingerprints sample, i'm quite stressed for a Monday. lucky for me, a simple look to the ceiling and a glimpse of hope is all i need to keep me strong.

After taking a 1 month breather from blogging, I noticed a change in personality. Now, this could be due to the change of culture, the change of friends, or even the absence of friends.. or all of the above. I'm not quite sure, but I like it.

during that 1 month, I've gone to an 18+ club -_-, watched fanny pak perform, went to the entrance of a 21+ club, had my "friends" un-invite me to their events, yea fuck you, watched wolverine, was reunited with a long long best friend from 5 years ago, had absolutely no contact with a close someone, reunited with The Trio, got a person to go against their beliefs, switched roles with Cassandra, broke 2 hearts, threw up, got a new job that pays me more than my previous, found a cheap chevron close to the house, went on a date, and found out that there can be happiness in independence.

never said that there is.

overall, life is better. i've talked to my counselor too, and i finally have direction. WOOT

i'm slowly accepting of this new life, and i'm content with it. even despite the fact that there are downtimes =). it's in constant change, the way life should be.

I guess you can say.. i'm over drama, over typical shit, over being tied-back. I'm over it.

There are sooo many challenges in life that occur.. tests.. to further figure out who you are. Sorry but, sometimes you gotta figure things out the hard way. =T

edit: 050509. happy cinco de mayo.

alrightttt so those tests didnt go too well. that's fiine... i cried pretty much the rest of the day and sucked it in. i'm not giving up. no way. wouldn't want a chabot-experience again.

i just keep telling myself;

ANYTHING is possible.

"backs to the past"