spoiled.

philippians 3:12
"12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me"


My Induction Training for bestbuymobile is hella long, and hella far. 9-5, pleasant hill. alls i have to say is, white lights are NOT good for my eyes. i had to ask the trainer to turn off a few so i could keep them open. it's hard to pay attention when your eyes are half-closed.

(btw, sorry guys. my sd card-reader for my camera is not being read by the downstairs computer. hey, it was cheap! like $3 for a simple, cute, small, sd card-reader. i think you can even find it cheaper elsewhere. like the dollar store, maybe? i bought mines at the Night Market in canada. so.. i've had it for about a year. it's about time for a new one.)

had it for about a year, time for a new one, hard to pay attention with eyes half closed, ... haha. dang. could life be any more obvious? blog readers, what have we all learned today?

k that was stupid. we obviously haven't learned enough. life is still going. let's continue.

i went to church on a friday Just Because.
Amanda took the sides of my head with both her hands and said,
"Look at me cheryl. You're FINE."
"I think I need some church right now."
"Whatever works for you."

I get ready and go to church with momma. Me n mom could use the bonding time, anyways. -_-. Sat through praise/worship.. looked around at the many people who were extending their arms as if to take a grasp on what they believe is optimistic hope. I feel sorry for the impatient. Ooooops, that's me?

I suddenly felt less worried and more relaxed as soon as pastor started to speak the word. Although perhaps the word doesn't exactly pinpoint everyone's problems, it can be seen in many different aspects. He said that sometimes, we use the wrong dictionary. I thought hey!, true. keep going..

situations come up in our everyday lives.. and we all handle them differently. we spend all our energy on one thing, and we are weak in others. Like the father who pushed his son to becoming the best team basketball player ever, and forgot about his daughter's violin recital. Or like the daughter who tried to make her outer relationships work, but couldn't even deal with her own relationships at home. catch my drift yet

what can we use our energy on? what needs our energy? instead of heavily on one side, lightly on the other, can we use this energy to restore balance? relieve me from this emptiness.
restore
renew
rejuvenate

the road to success is also the road to breakdown. what do you choose?

A healthy relationship is a phonecall away. Faith/hope/trust is not built in a day.. but rather Daily. Haha. See? Anything is possible, silly. =P

run the mothafuckin race

jeremiah 29:11

"11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"

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120307?

pictureblog

a weekend with daddy, o.g., and roach of course.


how bout some pho to start off the day?
"hey can i just sleep in the back" "cmon let's go!"Monterey.that little dot is a seal. clint eastwood'schicken marsalagrilled salmonRIBS.shrimp cocktail.we left the crab
in the starbuck's cup
in the car
while we walked around the city. when i came back, the lid was gone! i sat down, looked around, and there it was - straddling it's claws at me behind my ankle. !! i "eep!" 'd and it crawled into this unknown car hole =(. when we got back to essj, we opened the trunk and out of nowhere it landed on rachel's foot. SHE "eep!" 'd and daddy picked it up. lol. oh and we got a hermit crab too. =)uncle nelson's many fish tanks in one householdthat's right... he's got TURTLES! note: NOT aeolus/vishnu. the first picture is actually a painted slider.assthe following day,
my ateh melissa's grad party.
graduated from sfstate to become a teacher for something i forgot

congrats!

it aint nothin nice

"everything is going to be alright."







for some reason whenever i go through hell i feel like the next best thing is .. the next best thing is.. ..



the next best thing is uh..





shit. what's the next best thing? okay, i seriously dont know. but! something great will turn out of all this. it's one of those things where you just.. Feel it. i feel it.



fuck what they say.





hell is..

-test monday

-need $$

-finding time to spend w/ roach

-satisfying the need to be surrounded with people

-and also being home On time

-not getting enough sleep

-not getting enough food in my system

-therefore not exactly being healthy

-getting another ticket. [yes, another]

-the aftermath of telling mom i work at bestbuy

-doing this on my own



a few good things would include..

-new job offer? = upgrade $$

-a friend that pushes me to doing my best.



i think the goods outweigh the bads, yeah? NYEH who gives a fuck what they say. i'm good.
thanks bernie. all good. =)

i feel like

everything i say does not have sufficient evidence to back itself up. eh. more or less. thoughts are big, actions are small. a little help would be nice, but everybody knows that in the end - it's really up to Me to make the decision whether to put it into action or to go with my own perception of things.

perception can alter a lot of things, actually. it can take one good situation and turn it bad. it all depends on how you see it. so how do i see it? i see it as.. "in pen". by that i mean, Not in pencil. (well duh. clearly a pen is not a pencil.) but i meant like, this is For Sure now. pencil leaves room for mistakes.. therefore.. adding in an extra object: the eraser. curer of all mistakes. aha, but why would you want to make mistakes and erase with another object? why not just.. use one pen and know that there IS no room for mistakes. not this time around.

yep. you heard me right. One.

of course the previous was a test for me. now i'm in the big league. [lol, somebody tell me where i got that from] you can't simply say, hey you're my first and only. if so, it is very rare. firsts goes to seconds, each step with lessons learned. each experience with lessons learned. a crazy hell-ride of gained knowledge.

i think to myself, why not cheryl? why not.
perhaps spoiled? after daily consumption, yes. you can say that.
sick of it? here and there. but if i could give you my first instinct answer: No. i miss it, actually.
so then... wtf?

*scratches head*

why do i function this way? how can i function without it? and, is it possible? is it realistically possible? or will this continue right where it left off...

sorry this must be one of the most confusing-est blog i've ever really wrote. typed. whatever. it's 4:28am &i'm tiiiiired. too caught up in my own brain to realize what's really going on in front of me. wait what did i just say? this shit didn't get anywhere. =(


"halp"

ju lie

*snap*

damnit my eyes were closed.

*ring*

"hello? right now? why whassup? but... ok ok i'll be there kbye"

*nudge*

"shot?"

*tap*

"oh heyyy!"

*ring*

"oh shit i'm so sorry i'ma leave now. i'll be there in a bit"

*tick tock*

agh.. i have school tomorrow! oh, homework.... mom's gonna be so maaaadd

*sweat*

*grumble*

oh right i need to eat.


all the little things add up to make a day. i'm not exactly used to this rate of current events, although it is quite entertaining. i thank you for your time.

temperatures have rised, and so have emotions. i know where you stand. so what the fuck? the very question i ask myself Daily. i really have no idea. sculpt my mind to think a certain way, but to sculpt my heart would be near impossible. considering my story. you were damn close though.

good job for today. take 2 and i'll see you in the morning.